I’ve got 6 days left in my 30′s. Another decade almost gone. I’ve been reflecting on what it means to me to turn 40. It seems like a huge milestone in one respect and yet it’s really just another day older. I started to think of the things I’ve done in my 30′s, but as it turns out there are too many things that make me cringe with regret and embarrassment. I suppose I can sum it up by saying that I’m adding “Closure” to the list of things to do in my forties and that I’ve spent the last three years working on a new lifestyle. I’ve been married, soon to be divorced. I’ve had a baby, which turns out to be the biggest blessing that has ever happened to me, despite the fact that I am a single mom. I wear that label with pride. My son, as it turns out has given me strength and purpose and taught me what unconditional love is. I can’t say I’ve perfected that with any romantic partner in my life, but if I can love my son unconditionally, at least I know i did the most important thing in my life right. Turning 40 is a time for me to reflect on relationships, careers, goals and dreams. In my old life it would have been a time to get really really drunk. I would like to think that I am spiritually evolving. I would love to work at a job I am passionate about, but today I’m simple grateful to have my job. I have no inheritance, lottary winnings, home to sell, company stocks, or other things that produce income, so choosing not to work, take up creative pursuits or live a life of leisure is not an option. What I do have is a spiritual connection with God and a desire to be a better person. I can try and make the best of who I am and on some days that is easier said than done. So CHEERS TO ME and being 40….very soon.