Well, I’m 40! (With an exclamation point no less!) Yes, I turned 40 a few months ago. I have to say until my dr. appt. yesterday I really embraced 40, last night I didn’t and today.. even worse.

Let me start at the beginning.

For my 40th birthday, I had a birthday party. I have family and friends around. My husband, son and 2 step daughters (kids are 7, 15, & 17 respectively) were also with me. I had a great time and really found myself embracing the 40 year old syndrome. I am reasonably active after work, but during the day, I have a day job and sit at a desk all day.

So, after my birthday, I continue with my life, but a funny thing started to happen, I started to feel more confident. It was like a revelation one day. I felt like I gave off an aura of confidence and I felt sexy!! I felt more sexy at 40 than I did in my 30′s. Maybe because I could flirt with younger men and know I could get away with it. (no sexual innuendo’s just flirt). Maybe I was embracing the cougar in me. I felt more comfortable in my skin. So, life is good…

Well then I started noticing little things, my size 8 shorts didn’t fit.. uh-oh I went to a size 10…o.k. I wanted to get back into the gym more often. I started doing the workout that I did at 37 and –oh my the size 10 shorts are getting..umm snug..I also added modifying my food intake–diet for all of the non-dieters–which is something i didn’t do before.

So I went to the doctor yesterday for my yearly appt. After that appt, I felt like I need to start applying to nursing homes. The doctor meant well but when I asked about the weight gain, she told me that it is normal and now we have to work extra hard to get rid of the fat and it is much easier for us to gain weight. (no –really–wow thanks for that info).

My aura of confidence has vanished, my sexiness–GONE—(and to top it off I am PMS’ing). I feel fat, horrible, old, and want to eat a box of Whoppers but can’t because I will gain weight in the middle.

So, I guess I better eat vegtables, fart like an old woman, and know that I will not wear a t-shirt that says spoiled rotten on it (the dog might though